Went to see the social worker again today. I’m finally on a regular schedule and will be seeing her on a weekly basis. I made sure I stressed from the very beginning that I DO NOT wish to take any meds! I’ve had with medication! All I want to do is talk, that’s all.
Given the amount of time I have each session and the amount of stuff I have to talk about, I feel like I’m overwhelming to poor woman! Today I told her about the job and all of its horridness. She was properly shocked and literally told me “No wonder I was in the shape I was in. . . . . ” I likened it to being on the battlefield in Iraq. Only instead of guns and bombs, I’m dealing with threats, intimidation, apathy and corruption.
It’s sad to say that in that place nobody cares. That’s it. NOBODY!
When I went back to work briefly last week, I found out that The Boss Lady’s mom had passed away. She had been suffering from terminal cancer and they had given her a couple of months to live. Her struggle ended on 03/16/2011. When I returned to work, I found out her funeral had been the day before. Of course no one had called me to let me know. To top it off, people kept coming to me and asking me if I had gone to The Boss Lady’s mother’s service. Now, the only reason they would do that is because they themselves DID NOT GO, and were trying to suss out whether someone else went so they wouldn’t feel so bad. DISGUSTING!
At the time the most I could do was send The Boss Lady a condolence email. At the time, I have no clue if someone had taken up a collection or not. Totally unprofessional if you would ask me. Totally! The woman worked there for nearly 30 years, and at her time of sorrow, no one supports her. I should not be surprised because the same thing happened to me. My conclusion? The Department doesn’t give a FUDGE about us. Period.
I hate to revisit the situation, but I see why my co-worker committed suicide seven years ago. It’s so sad because after she did that, NOTHING CHANGED! In fact people became even more APATHETIC!
The only thing which comforts me is the fact that I have Jesus, and that HE will never leave me or forsake me. Also, one day, every one of those people will have to give an account before God. There is no way that people are to be treated with such SAVAGERY. Even animals show more respect for one another! And God made us HIGHER THAN ANIMALS, yet we insist on living in the animal nature.
It’s time to stop howling now. . . . . . . .